TRUST

TRUST.

This was our sermon at church this weekend. 

Trust God.

No one fully does it.

Sorry. It is just the sad fact. 

We always hold on to something.

Well, we went to service last night (Saturday night)

and then came home to some difficult news.

First the news was scary and induced fear.

(TRUST me said God)

Then more transpired and I felt doubt, anger, more fear

some relief

(TRUST ME)

I went to sleep.

We went to Disneyland for some distraction.

Pierce Brosnan (yummy)

helped with that because he was there being a great daddy and spouse.

He was oh so good looking and just looked so happy with his family.

Yay! for him.

Anyway, then I needed to make some calls and take care of some stuff 

so we left The Happiest Place on Earth by 2:00.

Back to concern, curiousity, relief, anger

(TRUST I heard again)

Yet, as we drove overwhelming anxiety 

(TRUST)

Then more of the same. 

Some relief.

Well overall the point is I am a barrel of confusion.

There's a lot of anger welling up.

Much concern.

HOPE.

But, it doesn't matter what I feel I need to 

TRUST!!!!

Trust that God is in control.

Trust that God has a plan.

Trust that hearts can and WILL be changed.

Trust that we are safe because God has us sealed in His protective grasp.

Trust, and then trust some more 

because there will NEVER be enough trust.

So I think I would prefer to do and think about some of these things instead

while I give my TRUST to God.

Grab a nice vampire novel and indulge

while drinking a celestial cup of coffee,

and then I will tuck myself into a dreamy bed of romantic daffodils

lifting my prayers to God for all the things he's blessed me with

and for the fact that He is truly the only constant that I can trust.

***Thanks for reading this confusing rant if you made it this far. I just needed to vent a bit***